What's Love Got To Do With It???

So.

It's been a while, huh?

See, I let someone I kinda-sorta know read this thing. So I've been hesitant to write again. I don't know why. But I'm gonna do it anyway.

I've noticed that I use a lot of cuss words. I kinda wanna go back and edit some of them out. But I think I'm gonna leave em and use it as a reminder that I need to cut back.
Pronto.

Weirdest thing:
Seth from high school has been messaging me.

Backstory:
Seth was a drummer in our high school band. And the mayor's son. So when he got caught smoking pot and fucking girls by our band teacher; his dad would make a monetary donation to the band council to keep it hush-hush. Seth pretty much had a bunch of young girl groupies. It's like he knew they were crushing and he took full advantage. Well, he was 3 years older than me, so of course, I kinda thought he was cute too. I think he knew that, but it was no big deal then.

I sent him a message on Facebook when I was 16. And all of a sudden, he messages me 5 years later saying he always liked me.

Riiiight.

He liked my rack. Even in high school it was huge.

But I gave him the benefit of the doubt and said he could text me.
And he's been asking me out for like, 3 months now and I keep using excuses like, "well, I don't make plans" and "we'll see. I'm a busy girl."

I sound like Eric. ha.
But I'm really not busy. And I really prefer plans in advance.
So I'm a liar.

I'm just hesitant. Why would a guy all of a sudden wanna hang out with me?

And so I've basically narrowed down the options:
A.) He's friends with Chris (who I slept with) and he's "heard" some things and wants to test them out.

B.) He's ran out of options on who to fuck. So he picked a random girl on Facebook chat and gave it a go.

C.) He saw me on Amber's Facebook friends, and after he got through sucking face with her, he was like, "Hey, Courtney...I remember her. She used to like me. Hmm."

With any option; he's wanting ass.
And I already got a friends with benefit thing going. So I don't need a second one.

I may go on the date, just to move past Eric. But I'm still not at ease on where his intentions lie.

Eric update?
I saw him last week. He told me he'd be home in the next 3 days and we could hang. But he never went home. So he moved it back. And then he never went home then, either...so he's moved it back until next week. Moving it back. Ugh. He either really doesn't wanna go home. Or he really doesn't wanna go home with me.
Either way, I'm kinda just over it.
I deserve better, fo sho.

Maybe I should give actual LOVE a chance in my life and leave the sexual desires behind?

Life's better than way, right?


Hm.