Turn On The Lights In Here Baby, Extra Bright, I Want Ya'll To See This

So. It's been a while since I've written a blog. I apologize.
I told you I was bad at this shit though. So you shouldn't be surprised.

I've been avoiding the computer since I got my job.
I'm back at DickSuck Cafe AKA Dixie Cafe.
So I've got my friends back. Even made some new ones. Been to a few parties. Smoked too much and didn't drink enough.

It's been pretty fun actually. And I'm waaaaay less depressed.

Eric Update?
WELL.
I get added by a girl named Jinger (stripper name, amIrightttt???). She starts asking me about my life and how I know her; so I tell her. We went to school together and did a few school plays together. She called me pretty on a bus once when I was 12. So we start talking and she wants to hang out. She asked me about Eric. And I was like, "We're friends". But then she started asking a bunch of other questions.

See. I don't like girls. Girls are manipulative, insecure and immature. Usually. I thought maybe she was different. So I told her. Everything. About how Eric and I have hooked up for almost 3 years. About how I used to like him. She basically called me a slut. You know how girls are mean in a "nice" way??? That's what she did. "Well, you and him never dated. All he wanted from you was to fuck. So you should be okay if we start dating, right?," "I just don't want you to get hurt...I feel soooo bad, but how could you sleep with a guy and NOT be in a relationship...for that long??," and blah blah blah. I wanted to hit her. With a car. No. A Semi.

I didn't wanna talk to her anymore after all the questions. But then she said he and her were talking. And I felt like shit for sharing all the info that I did with her. I wish she had told me what she wanted to begin with. Because she started getting really insecure afterwards. She'd text me RIGHT after I'd text him. So I guess he told her I was talking to him. Maybe they even had a game.

She kept trying to set me up with her "good friend" Zach. After two seconds of texting him though; I found out he was always "barred out" on zanax, was married (but seperated, as if that makes it better at the age of 24) and had a kid that he didn't take care of. Great guy, Jinger. Thanks for throwing him my way. ;D NOT.

I sent Eric a message when I was stoned telling him that I had feelings for him. Which is true. But I need to learn to keep it to myself. Guess Jinger heard about it because she let me know that Eric didn't wanna talk to me ever again and that he didn't wanna be my friend anymore because I "messed up". So I sent an apology message the next day after I sobered up.

And I stopped messsaging that bitch.
For real.
She's crazy, right?
She tried to insinuate that I was a drama starter for talking about relationships. But SHE messaged me on Facebook first, SHE asked about Eric first, she continued to ask about him even after I changed the subject many many times...so how am I the drama starter??
She needs to get her life checked out.
If she wants to walk around like she's a saint, she might wanna take the dick out of her mouth first.
That's all I'm saying.

So I've been ignoring her. And funny thing is, Eric is still talking to me. So I guess someone lied. Hmm.

And another weird thing? The other day the Zach guy changed his profile picture to one of him kissing Jinger. So. I don't know if her and Eric are dating anymore, nor do I care, but it's just a really weird coincidence that it happened. And I feel crazy for thinking she used him as a plot to get me out of the Eric picture (because she knew we had hooked up 3 weeks before she started talking to me), but I think she totally did. He hasn't made any effort to text me and he never really acted like he was into it anyway.

Drama, drama. I was supposed to be out of high school already. Pretty sad when a 21 year old has more of a grip on reality than two 25 year olds.

I feel bad for Eric though if he decides to get in a relationship with that crazy bitch. That'll be another failed relationship for him to add to his abundant list.

That's about all that's happened though.

Oh! New crush update!

This guy I work with, Blake, is totally cute. I kinda wanna makeout with him. He's got that sarcastic edge I like. :D BUT....he's 17. EWWWWWW.

Oh well....

Take care!!!!

Court